I'm in a very weird mood these days. I say weird cos I have absolutely no idea what I feel exactly. I'm neither angry. Nor am I sad. I can't determine if I'm happy either.
But what I do know, is that my ability to tolerate people has been reduced to almost nothing. Not just limited to dumb people
Was supposed to meet a fren for lunch today. Don't know her too well but wanted to catch up and see how things were with her. Since we kept saying we'll meet up anyways and not to mention how much we supposedly missed each other.
So we confirmed the meeting time and place yesterday evening. I cancelled all my appointments just so i could meet her.
Today she decided to cancel, two hrs after i called her to re-confirm. Well, not exactly "cancel", to be exact, she said if i didn't hear from her by noon, I was to assume that she couldn't make it. All this was done via SMS cos she was in a meeting and couldn't pick up the phone.
I had booked a table for two at a restaurant but told her it was all cool and met another friend for lunch. Shortly after, she texted me an apology.
Then we arranged to meet this evening. And because of that, I thought it'll be easier if I worked late from the office and met her right after that.
So 45 mins before our meeting time, she texted me and said she was still running errands and asked if i still wanted to meet.
I said i was in the office and asked what time she'll be done. No reply.
I left the office 35 mins later and texted her, asking if we are still meeting up. No reply.
15 mins later i texted her and assumed we were not meeting up. No reply.
3 hours has passed and i still haven't gotten a reply.
But I am not pissed. Although if I was, I'd probably feel much better.
Eventhough i would have preferred to know earlier, so I could work late in the comfort of my own home instead.
Besides, this is not the first time she has done this. There were 3 other incidents which almost always, is followed by an apologetic text message.
And well, coincidentally, its not the first time i have deleted people off my phone book or MSN list either. That makes a grand total of two people out of my life this week. And its not even mid-week!
Keep counting folks - I love spring cleaning!
I don't know why but deleting people off makes me feel like i have "removed" them from my life completely. And in some sick, distorted way it gives me immense pleasure. Like sort of having the upper hand - meaning I kick your ass out, not the other way round. Woooooooohoooooo!
It also means that I am not filing things away
in some corner of my brain to deal with later. These morons are privileged enough to jump the queue and go straight to the fuckin recycle bin. Awesome. Zero baggage is what I always strive for.
Oh did I mention peace of mind too? Perfect, just what i need.
P.S : Do you think I'm PMSing? Though at this moment, its highly impossible.UPDATE : She texted me an hour ago saying she was on the road and couldn't reply. I was very nice and chose not to reply, eventhough it took a lot of restrain on my part not to ask her if she has reached KL yet. For the benefit of my international readers, Kuala Lumpur (KL) which is the capital of Malaysia, is about 3 hours drive from Singapore.